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Every time the circling turkey
Vulture sirens pass our house,
I take inventory of where
Mine are. Need to make sure
The call emergency’s expanding
Sound spins off to
Is not too close to my bliss;
That the whispering touch of E.M.T.s
Will settle someone else’s
Soul to coma, jettison words
Through an impartial mouthpiece
Toward another mother’s ears.
While, through my phone,
Cam jokes, “Mom, I’m just calling
With the 4-1-1. I’m at the club.
Just letting you know in case
Something happens. Okay, Mom?” But
When I imagine him leaving
Club Three-One-Three with another
Boy in a homophobic
Part of town, I
See him falling from Charlie’s
Bridge or tied to Matthew’s
Zoë calls from the shady
Park, she wants
To play there untended into the evening.
But even as I imagine her friends
Close by, the candy doling strangers,
Lure her from the swinging glee.
I swell like a siren swells; I
Can’t say yes to either,
And the ambulance heads
South, away from my emotional
Lockdown, and rolls toward
Another mother’s disaster.
Tapestries and stained glass windows
Chocolate and Merlot
Cranberries and watery fields
Warm and buttery rolls
afternoon rain pressed against my dress
Water running down the drain
Furry rugs and hardwood
Fireplace and candy canes
The texture, and taste the gooeyness
Oh how I wish it would snow
An ode to a cup of hot cocoa w/ marshmallows
Thank you for being the heart of my life
Thank you for being the heart of my life,
Harboring me in the arms of your love,
Anchoring me in the rock of your faith,
Needing me, that I not be in vain,
Knowing me well, yet loving me still.
You are the island I’ve found in my sea,
Ocean I dwell in and deep where I dive,
Unfailing heaven and passionate earth.
I went to the Arizona Science Center this weekend. I was there for hours and watched a movie about black holes. I also got some great pictures of things outside of the Science Center. This is some of what I saw:
I felt like switching it up a bit this week. when i poured this beer, i realized the color looked so good I could drink it! But first, I had to take a picture of it! 🙂 I love the Peak Organic brews and I am looking forward to visiting the brewery this summer! holla!! If you haven’t tried there beers do it!! This was a only $4.99 and one tasty treat at that!
Flying lesson 13
More “mind” than “body”.
Mind = sense, consciousness, brainpower, intellect, imagination, thoughts, thinking, understanding, mentality, attitude, spirit, soul <the great mind of the universe>, intelligence, brain, personality, psyche, inclination, desire, memory, meaning, opinion, thought, disposition, judgement, instinct
Body = organic structure, dead body, corpse
It becomes quite obvious that such an all-embracing part of me will need some attention and an occasional flying lesson once in a while, as the body receives a gift every day.
So flying Lesson 14 is mainly about only taking responsibility for what is necessary for my own well-being. Mind-being, mind loops.
As usual time is already scheduled, vehicle test 9.30, pick up printing frames from workshop, take car battery to the waste/recycle dump, buy ingredients for tonight’s dinner dessert, wash up, organise the living room so 10 people can fit around a table, cooking, enjoying dinner with friends.
Not a tight schedule and no difficult tasks.
I start a bit late will simply put my foot down on the gas pedal a bit harder and make it just in time.
Car test result: only a slightly cracked exhaust pipe which needs replacing, an easy fix.
Artist’s workshop: after being a member for 26 years I have decided to quit and I try to make sure that my responsibilities are properly delt with and forwarded to others.
One of my most important responsibility has been as a cleaning reminder, making sure everybody on the list will come and clean the place when it’s their week. With 850 members it needs a lot of reminding.
I write a note about it to the members of the Board and call one of the guys to let them know right away and to deal with it. Get a harsh comment from him when I tell him I’m leaving the workshop completely. “When the wind get’s tough a lot of people are dropping out,” he says without any further explaination of how this would relate to me. When he 10 minutes later walk in through the door I tell him that I think his comment was rather unnecessary, especially since he hasn’t got a clue about my personal reason to quit. ………….. No answer ………… I ask him if silence is really his only reaction. ………. Continued silence ………
I wonder about this common silent treatment among people with self confidence issues and I’m even more pleased with my choice to quit the workshop.
Pack my stuff in the car and leave without any thoughts about responsibility and the stress about the future in there.
The recycle/waste dump: not a lot of people, fast and easy delivery and friendly staff.
Shop: find everything I need easily and even some good and cheap stuff for future meals.
Home: start the washing up and cleaning of kitchen. Trying to do things peacefully to get ready in time without stress. Usually I’m left with a lot of unfinished cleaning up when it should be time to just enjoy. As a result I get a closet full of quickly completed clean-ups.
Dessert: a disaster but could, with a lot of creativity, be transformed into what might be a completely different dessert. I am not panicing, it’s just a degree of uncertainty.
Luckily, the first guest is about 2 hours early because she decided that I might need help. She’s a good and clever friend, Amanda.
I quickly leave the creative task of my half finished dessert project to her. With the information that it has already failed and any result will be a fantastic result, making sure she doesn’t take the make-over of my failure to seriously.
While I try to get a grip on things and figure out what to wear she also refurnishes the livingroom, fix a large enough dinner table and finds a large enough table cloth to put on it. Only chairs missing.
We walk over to her place to borrow some chairs but leave the door unlocked in case more guests will show up. They do, the first one quickly starts to put away the dishes and finish cleaning the rest of it.
Then they keep on arriving and all the guests take care of both cooking, baking (from their own home made and pre-made dough), table setting, serving, filling everyone’s glasses, chatting and later more washing up and cleaning and I can just enjoy doing the parts I like. All to satisfy my mind, this mostly includes to sit still, eat, talk and eventually take the chairs back with Amanda.
I think my friends make a good field to practice mind loops on.
They are always ready, just in time, responsible enough and give big warm hugs.